Heart, I said
what do you need to tell me your final destination?
Shall I find a clearing in this forest of limbs where each instant,
there are dozens of branches reaching out to meet your touch?
Shall I dispose of the old water in this bottle
so we will have no other choice but to find a fresh spring?
Heart, you are my guide to the unseen,
I am blind and you are my seeing dog.
Heart, I whispered
sometimes I am afraid of your destination.
So I pretend you are the destination.
You know where you are going
you were carved from the walls of your former home
you sing with the memory of its hallowed halls
and to your former home you shall return, whole.
But you are heavy with half-loves I have forgotten to forsake.
I have kept you prisoner to a sea of endings forever born,
held you in a perpetual Autumn
warmed with only last winter's dying coals.
Every moment,
there are tens of thousands of souls rushing into this world.
Every moment, there are tens of thousands of worlds
fading into the white and black of memory.
Heart,
as much as I try to keep you fettered and caged
I felt you stir free like the wind this morning.
Heart,
I felt the kiss of the morning sun today and forgot how to breathe.
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to be continued
